Our second journey to adoption

As I've mentioned before, we have struggled with infertility for just shy of 5 years. I pray about it all the time, but I know that if God had answered my prayers the first time, we wouldn't have Owen. And that would be a far worse fate!!!!!! I just ended taking any kind of treatment for infertility. (Which consisted of hormonal therapy) It wasn't helping with the irregular cycles anyway, and my doctor had stopped reviewing my chart, so I had a feeling he wasn't really confident that he could do anything else for me.  Therefore, it seemed it was time to just let go of the treatments for a while. It hit me hard ending them, because I still pray that maybe someday God will think it's the right time for us to have a bio babe as well our adopted babes.

I might eventually try to get re-evaluted or get a second opinion about my irregular cycles. But, for right now, we are focusing on our next adoption. I know in my heart God has at least one other baby waiting for us to bring him/her home. This second babe is also in Russia, and I know that the infertility is a blessing, because our lives couldn't be whole without Owen or the next baby that God has planned for us.

I may never know the gift of life the same way as other mothers, but I have to remind myself, that the best thing you can want for another person is a relationship with God. My prayers, my husband's prayers, our family and friend's prayers, are what is nurturing and feeding our baby in Russia, just as they did with Owen. Our bond did not start through an umbilical cord, but rather through our hearts. Our baby is being physically fed by care takers right now, but our prayers are going to my baby's heart where God is his/her center. I know our prayers are being answered, because we've already gotten to experience this joy with Owen. So, as I end my post tonight, I ask everyone to continue praying for our family, especially for the little one we hope to soon welcome home. I know that my baby feels these prayers and love, because I can feel his/hers in my heart. 

28 months and 16 months home.

My baby turned 28 months 5/30/12. Tomorrow, 06/08/12 marks Owen being home 14 months. I cannot believe how much he continues to grow and amaze me. He continues to increase his talking. His singing is getting better in terms of singing along with songs. I just love the fact that he LOVES Raffi, since that is a kids singer that I grew up with and loved. Up until a couple of months ago, he preferred these other CDs of kids songs, but now he ALWAYS wants Raffi on in the car. Luckily, kid music is still okay for me to sing along with too;)

Tonight, after we played outside for a little bit, Owen and I sat on the glider on our back deck, and we sang part of a Raffi song together while we glided. Now, that only lasted for a minute, but it still was nice. Of course he is SUPER energetic and has to constantly moving (alot like his dad actually), so i wasn't surprised that we didn't sit there longer.

He's so much better with listening/reading books now, that it's fun to see what book he's "in the mood" for at bedtime. He likes to read a lot, and for that I'm glad. I love to read, and find it so valuable as a hobby, because it keeps your mind sharper than being a TV junky. Plus, if he becomes a reader like me, He'll love diving into the stories.